It's difficult to find friends like all of you...it's like opening a thousand shells under the sea to find a pearl....But findings all of you make my live worthwhile....
“A friend in need is a friend indeed” that the real value we need to find in a person that we called as a friend. But it is such a hardest thing to do. So i believe everyone in this world may still search that value in order to find the true friends. Whereas, for me, i know that, i do not have to find it anymore because i already have that kind of friends. I am such a lucky person to have them as my friends. Why i know all my friends have the value of “a friend in need is a friend indeed”? All this happen when i am in semester 2. In early semester 2, all the students of MPCIM will get their final examination result. This is the nervous time ever for all the students. From this result they will know their next luck whether they passed or not. This is also to know whether they are able to further their study or not. So, everyone seems like very afraid to know their result. The same thing goes to my friends and i. We are pray for our best. Hoping all of us will get the best results. First of all, to get the result, we need to see the mentor. Mentor is a lecturer that was be given the task to handle several students under them like a parents. When i went to the class that full with the other mentees, my mentor passed the result to me. Unfortunately, when i open the result, i feel so sad because my pointer not even reach at 3 like the other friends. In addition, i get to know that i failed one subject for that semester which is academic studies 1.Seems like my spirit flew away...But i need to cover my tears from fall in front of my mentor and the other mentees(so shameful to cry like a child just because of my mistake at the past). At that time, feel like i want to shout out... This is because all my friends got GPA 3 point above except me. When i reach at my room, i do not talk with my friends which are my roommates. All of them keep asking about my result. Maybe they were wondering why i do not speak as usual. So, i passed my result and let them see my result. After they see, they know why i quiet and my face looks so gloomy. My minds start to think all other matters. Feel very ashamed to myself, my friends and my family. Many question cross my mind at that time...How’s should i tell my parent? Seem like i do not appreciate my parent’s sacrifice for me..I feel so sad..Feel guilty and feelings like i just want to stop from continue my study. I feel very down. This is the time to inform my parents about my result. My tears falling down without stop when i hear my mother’s voice. Seems like i want to kill myself from telling my mother’s about my result. I know the news that i will tell them will hurting them and make them ashamed. So, by hook or by crook i need to tell them about the real situation because whatever happens one day they will know it also. When i tell my mothers’, my tears keep falling until my mother said “adik dah la tu..It’s okay...ni kan first time adik ambil exam, semester ni berusaha kuat lagi..lagipun adik xpandai sangat kan bahasa inggeris...kira okay lah tu..belajar lagi...jangan putus asa...ok!!!!”(i am crying without speak anything). Lastly i can’t stand anymore to hear my mother voice. She keeps support me even though i had hurt her. My father? He is do not say anything. But i know deep in his heart he is disappointed with me. After that i hang up the phone. Just a few minutes after that, my phone is ringing. My sister calls. I pick up the phone and my sister asks about my result. She gives advice to me and hoping I will build my spirit to study back. Then she hangs up the phone. After that she text me with the words that really make me aware that there are still people who still love me even though i have disappointed them. Her text sounds like this “mengejar impian itu memang memenatkan...kadangkala mengundang putus asa...hakikatnya...yang penat itulah bakal memberikan pulangan yang berharga...SELAMAT BERJUANG”. Now my self- motivated becomes a little bit strong. It is the hardest time for me to going through because all this things i need to face by myself because being far apart from my families. Whatever it is, praise thanks to Allah because give me special friends that always be with me in the time i need them. Even i just friends with them for a few months, but our relationships shows that strong friendship does not based on how long we are be friends. They know the incident that happen makes my spirit down and they know that i am sad on all those things that happen. Moreover, i know all my lovely friends cannot stand to see me in that time. I know they are pitiful with me. But they can do nothing accept give moral support for me to wake up again and be the best. The most things that make me sad are from that semester i can’t be their classmate because my timetable will be clash with their timetable. Just Allah knows my real feelings to be not with them. Start from that day, i promise with myself i will not hurt and disappointed my parents anymore. I will study hard in order to not repeated the same mistake. To do so, i need to study more hard from the others because i know I’m weak in English. Every night before i sleep i need to read English stuff first like magazines or newspaper to improve my vocabulary and my pronunciations. Effect of that incident also, i start to be more active in the class and i need to hide my ashamed feeling. I also start to give full attention in the class. Not like before which is i tend to be more passive and play around in the class. When i have tasked or assignment that was assigned to me, they are the one who will be the first people gives their hands to me. They are also the one who makes me laugh back and makes me cheerful back as before. I can’t imagine if i do not have them besides me when i in that time. Perhaps, i just stop my study and maybe i’ll not write about all this things today. My buddies, all of you like my spirits. Thanks for giving me the strengths to continue my life, give me the strength to standing back and be with me when i need all of you. Without all of you, i will not able to wake up again and fight for myself...THANKS A LOT MY BUDDIES....HOPE OUR FRIENDSHIP WILL NEVER END EVENTHOUGH WE ARE APART BY THE DEATH..
